Happy Valentine's... Not!

How often do a person usually blog? I have not been away but for a while I decided not to complain about life. In fact, I didn't even want to reflect upon what was going on with my life. I think I still love my man but... more often these days... I just wish someone would sweep me off my feet, charm my unmentionables off or I wouls simply settle for a little attention and kindness...

Attentiveness. Most guys out there don't get what we want. I am not asking for 24/7 kind of attention. Most of us can't live with such constant, unrelenting attention but we do like to be acknowledge. Look up, smile at us when we enter the room. One touch, a simple caress to show that you know we are there.

It's Valentine's today... I began my day saying 'I hate you' to his sleeping ears. At that point I did hate him. The idiot. Thinks he's God's gift to society. Sharing the joys of his conversation and presence with just about everyone he knows and when his energy runs out came crawling back to me. Or more to the point to his side of the bed. When was the last time he kissed me because he wanted to? I forgot. When was the last time he hugged me just because? Seems like time passed along with my memories... I want to feel loved. I want to know I am loved. He said I want too much from him... I said it is only fair to want to be loved, to know I am loved by the one who pledge to be with me...